I worry about the miraculous healing stories like Bartimaeus being healed of his blindness because his faith made him call out to Jesus when those around him would have him be silent.
There is one thing in the description that has always intrigued me. Bartimaeus threw off his cloak and sprang up to go to Jesus, which doesn’t seem like the cautious movement through the world of a person without vision. He could “see” before he was healed.
I’m going to direct you to the practice of focusing where you listen to what your body knows about your emotional state to address your emotional issues. Summarize the steps and write them on a piece of paper you can peak at while you do your own practice.
When you’re done focusing, create an image of the thing that blinded you (use the handle). Now that you can “see” it, you can figure out how to overcome it. On the back of your image, write how you plan to overcome you blindness in small, concrete steps.